每个人都有理想了，那我呢？

          星期五一回到hometown就跟阿teh，kar ling，心慧，ah matt，maple一起去吃火锅。我们从晚上六点多开始吃，一直到十点多吧~厉害。。。。我也没想到可以吃了这么久哦。。。。
          在那里大家都开始谈到将来有什么打算，例如申请去外国读书，就大家都有一个目标咯，而我呢？我又开始犹豫了，到底我真的有什么目标呢？我的目标是成为一个有名的甜品师，不过这个目标有点远哦！
           有时候，我会怀疑我到底是喜欢谁的？一时突然对某某人有感觉，一时又突然对另外一个人有感觉！很烦！！不想想这么多了。。。。只想一个人静静！

nothin special for me

           Sem 3，nothing special for me， just a short sem and nothing interesting things happened on me。 A boring sem for me but its short。
           Hmmm，now is 11.40pm，but today i'm cant sleep la....need to rush for my assignment.In this world， want to get a true n close frenz is really difficult， i'm not a talkative guy when talking to stranger, but i'm will keep talking with my close frenz without stop。But i'm just like to be alone sometimes, sometimes when my mood is ok，i will take an initiative talk to u，if that day i'm not in mood or maybe emo-ing， please don talk nonsense to me coz i'm not going to talking with u。When i'm just emo-ing suddenly, what i'm need is just leave me alone。
            I'm quite enjoy to jogging alone by listening music，n i'm really wanna go to swim now，floating on the water like my pressure n tension n unhappy things all will disappear。Besides that，I like to share my time to chat with my frenz by chatting any topic like love，how his/her life recently。
             Dont know why...after i have been working for a month，now i'm don have mood to study，just feel working is much more better than study，today result of tamadun test，i'm just surprised of my marks for a few second but nothing big deal for me。Just a small test for me，if can i hope can get  3.5 GPA for this sem....coz i'm wan my cgpa to become 3.0 something . 

            

笑得我要死

           昨天跟你们出去喝茶，简直笑得我快要心脏病发作了，哈哈哈哈笑个不停，已经很久没跟你们出去喝茶吧，一个月咯，新年期间由于工作关系都不能跟你们出去喝茶啊，昨天在强芳帮maple姐庆祝生日，哈哈.....昨天我把我被人剪错头发的事跟你们讲，结果呢？给你们死命的笑我，尤其是ah ling和阿宝，拼命的拿我的发型来笑，haiz。。。不过她们讲的很好笑，笑得我几次快要窒息了，很难呼吸那种！哈哈
            昨天我死命的说废话啦，也许很久没跟你们见面吧，所以很多废话跟你们讲。我也笑得蛮大声的咯！真的丢脸！不过还是很开心！

Sorry~

         

           When I hear this song, I started realized that sometimes I keep hurting people by saying some rude words to them. I don't know what happened on me? Now, I becomes so diffrently than before. I hope I can turn back to a little guy that always smilling to everybody, always keep say jokes to them....n not keep play cool to my friends! Maybe i'm still not so close with them, now i'm really shy to talk to new friends,unless they always keep find some topic talk to me.
           But its quite weird, I'm keep find some topic to talk with my new friends when I'm working at Restoran Chef Choi. For example, I will ask them some riddles, n the answers are very funny. Its make me quite fun when i tell them the answer. I don't know why I will take the initiative to start to talk to them. Maybe i'm so boring at there until I have to take the initiative to talk with them. 
           Sometimes by saying a joke can make the relationship become so close. First 1 half week, I really seldom talk to ah sin, kah yan, dudu them o, but when I get close to them, Im start talking nonsense to them, its really a miracle to me coz i'm never get close to a new friend at not more than 2 week. Maybe they r funny guys lo, coz they r amazing when I'm talking to them, my mood will always be in happy mood.^^
            Sometimes although I'm just standing in front of the door with them to welcoming the guests, I'm wont feel bored coz can talking nonsense to them, n no need to serve customers lo, we just need to say greeting to customers, n bring to customers to section n say thx q to them when they r leaving ! But sometimes coz i'm too pay attention talking nonsense with you guys...got customers coming...but i'm didnt realize this, but luckily got kah seng remind us about got customers coming, n we quickly open the door n welcoming the guest.haha....stupid me?
            Last week working ba, I'm standing in front of the door with ah sin, do u know what we play? Maybe we so bored to waiting the customers coming, so we playing “猜拳” while waiting customers coming，its really childish to me coz i'm never been so playful when I'm working. N one time, coz that 13 customers in one table should serve by ah sin, but he grab my section customers, but i not willing to serve them, coz its troublesome for me n i don like to serve so many customer in just one table! Thus, i try go back to my section but he keep pushing me go to serve those customers, we keep playing around n finally its me going to serve those customers!haiz~hate it but fun to me.
              The most fun is when we eat supper  lo....sometimes we keep the dishes that left by customers...if luckily we can eat dessert lo, n sometimes lucky ah,we can drink the wine that left by customers le.....its fun~the wine is much more tasty than Carsbelg or Guinness...that moments we will keep talking nonsense, its makes me laugh always until cant stopped....
             N I'm felt most happy was when i'm serve the nice n polite customers, at least they will say "Thanks you" to me, n sometimes i'm cant stand to laugh coz some customers talking some nonsense make me wanna to laugh.....n last day i'm working at there, i'm n kah yan going to serve 13 customers at F room, one of the customers is same name with me, but his english name is KC, but i'm guess he is a gay, coz how he talk n his style of talking just like a pondan n gay.....that table got 10 guys n three girls only, i think that 10 guys r gay lo....coz some of them wearing style just like a gay.....one of the girls there quite pretty but i think she got make up. What they talking r quite funny to me, kah yan also cant stand to smile when hear that kind of nonsense ah.
              I really wanna say thx q to my working friends lo....coz sometimes I'm not in happy mood because of someone, I can talk to them about why today i don feel happy, its really precious n happy to know u guys! Before i go there, I'm seldom talk with big head la, but if know him more, u will discover actually he is quite crazy n funny guys. After know him more n more,sometimes i will talk some nonsense with him la for a while....but he is really a crazy guy...coz i'm still cant forget what happenned at that evening.....what he done with ah sin....oh....cant imagine why they will suddenly play like this lo....thats evening make us cant stop laughing n screaming when seeing they do these kind of things in front of us while eating dinner at Restoran Chef Choi ah....kuan jie, ah yen, xiao yee, alison, manager also cant stop laughing lo...
             First time go to buy roti pisang with u, that moments quite funny la....n second time going to KLCC KFC having lunch....we keep talking bad things about someone at KFC，n we complaint to each other about how someone treat us badly ah, n we discuss how we do revenge to them ah.....talk n talk,non stop.....,n thx q coz u willing go to Secret Recipe with me oh although that day u just recover from sick. Sometimes I will found u so announying coz of your voice ba, n sometimes talking nonsense with u n kah yan is enjoyable time to me.^_^ Its great to have u this kind of amazing frenz....
             N i'm gonna miss the moments we singing the song“Angel-akon”，n u guys change some lyric of this song,“the one part of original lyric of this song is she got wings, she got a halo”，but u guys sing like this “she got wings,she got a hailo”，beh tahan u guys la!
           

sometimes

          有時候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜的發呆。有時候，夜深人靜，突然覺得不是睡不著，而是固執地不想睡。有時候，聽到一首歌，就會突然想起一個人。有時候，別人突然對你說，我覺得你變了，然後自己開始百感交集。——丟了的自己，只能慢慢撿回來。
          有時，我很累了，我習慣假裝堅強 ，習慣了一個人面對所有，我不知道自己到底想怎麼樣。有時候我可以很開心的和每個人說話，可以很放肆的，可是卻沒有人知道，那不過是偽裝，很刻意的偽裝；我可以讓自己很快樂很快樂，可是卻找不到快樂的源頭，只是傻笑。
           有人告訴我，魚的記憶只有7秒，7秒之後它就不記得過去的事情，一切又都變成新的。所以，在那小小魚缸裡的魚兒，永遠不會感到無聊 。我寧願是條魚，7秒一過就什麼都忘記，曾經遇到的人，曾經做過的事，都可以煙消雲散。
            

哭笑不得

          我现在的心情平复了很多，昨天去剪头发，怎知我常去的剪发店没有开，没关系，我就去新的剪发店剪，我跟那个人说我要剪短我的头发，那个人最后把我的头发给剃光！气到我要死！（剪头发的过程我不想多说）
          现在我去哪里都好，我都要戴帽子，就算我走出我的宿舍的客厅到冲凉房也好，我也需要带个帽子，因为怕被我的室友看到，好想撞墙啊！真的哭笑不得啦，可是当我照镜子的时候，我看着我的光头，我就会想回我当兵那个发型！很怀念这个发型。自从当兵完了，已经一年没剪这种发型哦！
          算吧。。不剪都剪了，等着我的头发长！！！！！

下雨的早上

          现在下着雨，望着窗外的雨点，又开始想念KL的生活，想念跟你们一起工作的时光，haiz，我每次都是这样的，一开始去当兵，我很想回家，但最后一天，我却不舍得我当兵那个地方，也不舍得那里的朋友，一开始去Restoran Chef Choi打工时，我也很想回家，但最后那一个礼拜，我却不想回家咯，因为很喜欢跟朋友一起工作，一起吃饭。
          最后那一个礼拜，好多好料吃咯，有我最喜欢的“香酥鸭”吃咧，它的香味是多么的难形容啊！太香啦！最特别的是，它的精髓是在于它的骨也能吃哦！好吃耶！那天很多东西吃咯，有nyonya糕点，炸香蕉（可是很好吃），糖水......
          我们在那里总共吃“捞生”三次了，一次是还没新年之前，一次时学习怎样上“捞生”的时候，那天有加三文鱼，讲到那天就好笑咯，那天她做的那些动作笑得我们要死，连老板都笑得用手盖着脸呢！那天跟老板第一次一起捞生咯！还有一次是最后一个礼拜，我，ah xin，kar seng，chew，kah yan，ah fei，manager，ah yen，xiao yee，一起在F room捞生咯，那是我第三次捞生！
          很想念大家一回去宿舍，大家就会抢冲凉房冲凉，大家一定会说“我先冲啊”，如果我没去KL做工的话，我想我一定会在家做个废人，一起身就玩电脑上网，吃饭，睡觉罢了！幸好我有去打工咯，可以认识到你们，是我最大的收获！          

不舍得吧？

          昨天总于从KL回到来金宝，回到来这里已经差不多一点吧，然后整理房间，扫地抹地，整理包袱，洗衣服冲凉已经三点多了！然后就睡觉，一觉到天亮，回到宿舍的感觉还蛮不错的！
          昨天跟大头，STP逛街从早上十一点多逛到晚上八点多，我们去了Pavillion，Times square,Sungai wang Plaza, Low Yat,我又买了不少东西 ，买了新三件T-shirt，一个新的mp3，拖鞋。也花了不少钱啦。
          这一个月让我体会了不一样的生活，这是我第一次出来工作，而且是跟朋友出去工作，一开始我觉得我适应不来想回家，怎知我竟然可以做了一个月的工作，一开始去到那里觉得有点累啦，每天都要站很久。去到那里认识到很多新朋友，STP，ah sin, 佳丽，qing hui，阿辉，kar yan，这是我收获最大的，去到那里真的学到很多东西！manager, ah yen, 群姐，xiao yee, alison，他们都教了我很多东西！真的很想念他们！
          有几次我想不做的了，我想回家休息，有可能做到很累了吧，我说得累不是身体上的累，而是心理上的疲惫，真的很累了，去到那里做工也发生很多让我不开心的事，我有跟那里的朋友讲我不想做了，但他们都劝我做埋下去咯，幸好我有听他们说啦，最好那个礼拜我累得很开心！
          我会很怀念跟你们在那里度过的美好时光，我还记得每天早上，我们折napkin 和towel的时候，我会跟你还有ah sin，kar yan说某某人的坏话，哈哈，好开心咯，我们每天早上折着napkin都会聊下天，互相抱怨这样！真的很开心！
          很怀念跟你们度过的时光，还记得我们新年时期，我们晚上赌博的时候，好开心哦！我们玩到很大声吧，结果第二天晚上回去宿舍，门口贴着“希望你们晚上12点以后不要发出太大声，请多多合作！”哈哈，笑死我了~
          跟你谈天我很享受，跟你出去我很开心，已经很久没遇到像你酱好谈的朋友了，你很多话讲的咯，哈哈，你常常做出那些动作会搞得我们很好笑，连老板看到都笑得要死 !真的很不好意思，因为那天我做了酱白痴的事搞得你尴尬！真的想跟你再次说声抱歉！
           昨天最后一次见到manager, kuan jie, ah yen, 我突然有点不舍得他们，好想跟他们拥抱！真的太不舍得那里啦，也不舍得alison，因为她总是会拿一些好吃的食物给我们，也不舍得老板，因为他很好人，时常给我们好吃的食物，为人也很搞笑~
         

心都累了

           今天我真的觉得很累，心真的觉得很累，我没心去专注我的工作，很累很累。我不想干了，天天都要看人家脸色，而且，每天都很迟才可以睡觉。
           我真的不想干了，今天还因此倒翻了红豆汤，但幸好我的朋友帮我忙。我不想干了

你真的让我想打你的冲动

          一大早的好心情就给你刚才的几句话给搞砸了，死八婆你啊，每次问你东西，你总是给我脸色我看，你想怎样？我得罪你是吗？你快点去死。。。。
          刚刚我问你问题，你就给我翻白眼，然后就给些难听的话给我听，讲：“我地的Casey不会啊”，如果将都不会，最多请吃咯”，你妈的，谁说我不会，我只是confirm多一次罢了，你就给我脸色看，又给我说些难听的话我听啦！你快点去死`

你真的很特别~

          今天又跟你讲话了，你的一举一动真的弄得我笑个不停，你真的是个很特别的女生，你很爱笑的咯，每次跟你讲话我一定会笑个不停。今天你又做了一些动作搞得大家笑个不停，跟你讲话大概十分钟这样已经让我笑到十分钟了。
          你跟我一个朋友很像咯，都是一样喜欢笑，总是会为一些小事笑个不停，我很喜欢喜欢笑的女生，我很久没遇到像你这么特别的女生了，跟你讲话会搞得我也很开心。我真的很开心，来到这里能认识到你是我最大的收获！

兴奋的一天

          今天又继续下雨了，早上洗澡冷得要死，可是一开始工作，就开始觉得打瞌睡，这种天气最适合睡觉的了.......
          今天老板请吃楼生，walao，好吃到，一流啊，真的开始喜欢KL这里的生活了......今天你又做了一些事情搞得大家很开心了，笑得我们要死，哈哈......

做工做到不开心

          还有19天我就做完工了，看到你就会很生气，每次给脸色我看，妈的你，每次脸黑黑的，搞得我好想杀你全家这样，我来这里是打工不是看你脸色做人的，还要忍多你19天，明天拿到工钱我就去买一个nike球鞋给自己开心下，然后后天可以off day半天，不用看到你，你以为你很厉害啊，打完这次工我不会再在这间餐厅打工的了，我不想见到你。
           我这么多年以来，没有人整天给脸色我看，就只有你，我打工这么多天，你就给我酱多天脸色我看，你算老几，一时真的很想骂你，凭什么你整天爱给脸色我看，我得罪你什么？真想给你两巴掌！！！！！！！！！

心情复杂的一天

         今天的心情，好复杂哦，后天就要去KL打工了，一去差不多整个月，都不能回家，然后新年也不能跟朋友聚一聚这样，有很多朋友将要从外国回来了，例如：ninja从台湾回来，祖仪和vincent也要从新加波回来了，而且有很多朋友都很久没见面了，有些已经一年没见面了......
         今天回到金宝，跟阿ling，kamy，hou哥吃晚餐，第一次跟他们在金宝吃东西，不错咯，还蛮开心的，阿ling的头发让我们个个看了都觉得她的发型好像法官哦，哈哈，笑死我了......
         希望去到KL做工能顺顺利利，没被老板责骂已经觉得幸运了，希望在那里会过得很开心啦，今天的心情就好像我还没去当兵的前一天晚上那样复杂，就觉得好复杂哦，当兵是我离家最久的一次，然后虽然自从我在金宝住了之后，我就不能天天回家，但我每个星期都有回家的，只有一次试过两个礼拜回一次家罢了，但这次去KL要离家一个月，有点不舍得，新年难得可以见到许久未见的老友，但今年新年不能跟朋友过了，然后ninja二月17日又要回台湾了，不知我打完工要到几时！
         我只希望sem 3不要将快到，我不想这么快面对新的subject，新的assignment,新的test，我只想玩！！！！！！！！

好久不见的老友

          今晚见到一位老朋友，阿ling，她变了许多，发型变了好多咯，会打扮了咯，哈哈，虽然还蛮不习惯她的发型，不过还蛮开心的。
          下个礼拜三就要去KL做工了，有点紧张，因为毕竟是我第一次打工，有点怕，总之希望不要给老板骂，我已经很满足了，有点不舍得咧，一个月在KL打工，不能回来，有点不舍得。不过，我会加油的。加油，casey chong，你行的！

终于说出口了

         要跟某人说“对不起”，真的没有想象那么容易，不过今天我终于说出口了，虽然不是面对面跟他们俩道歉，我只是在他们fb留言跟他们道歉，但起码我终于抛下我的面子跟他们道歉！
         今天不知做么的，突然听到westliife这首歌-before it's too late，我在思考如果我再继续酱注重我的面子问题，那我真的太可恶了。2011年了，2010年真的发生很多事情，我变了很多，现在变得比以前开朗很多，但脾气比以前差了很多，我变得小气了，一时跟别人吵了几句就跟他翻脸了。
         也不知道为何我这么小气了，以前别人说我什么，我总是笑一笑就能忘掉，当兵让我思想变得成熟很多，真的很对不起，隔了这么天才道歉，有个是我隔了几个月才道歉，唉！
         不过我终于说出口了.........